NARCISSISTIC ABUSE RECOVERY | Narcissist, Co-Parenting, Grey Rock Method, Boundaries, Healing, Toxic Relationship

Have you ever wondered why some people don’t just irritate you — they completely dysregulate you? In this episode, we explore why highly sensitive people are more deeply affected by emotionally unpredictable or manipulative personalities, and why this has nothing to do with being weak or “too much.” If you’ve been healing from narcissistic or emotional abuse and still find yourself over-explaining, self-blaming, or staying longer than you should, this episode connects the dots with compassion and clarity. This conversation is about understanding patterns — not judging yourself — so you can finally stop managing other people’s emotions and start protecting your nervous system. Your Next Step in Healing If this episode hit close to home and you’re realizing this pattern has repeated — and you’re tired of trying to figure it out alone — you don’t have to. I work 1:1 with women healing from narcissistic and emotional abuse who are ready to feel calmer, clearer, and more grounded in their relationships and decisions. ✨ 3-Month Coaching Container Focused support to stabilize your nervous system, strengthen boundaries, and begin rebuilding peace and self-trust. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/transformational-coaching-quarterly/ ✨ 6-Month Coaching Container Extended support to deepen the work, practice boundaries in real life, and integrate new patterns with consistency. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/6-month-queens-of-peace-program/ ✨ 12-Month Coaching Container Long-term mentorship and steady support while you rebuild your life at a grounded, sustainable pace. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/12-month-queens-of-peace-program/ Additional Support & Resources Join the Free Facebook Community https://www.facebook.com/groups/christyjade Empowered Boundaries Course https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/empowered-boundaries/ Boundaries Pocket Guide (Free) Learn how to set and hold boundaries without spiraling into guilt or over-explaining. https://christyjade.ck.page/ce79ea9250 Copy-Paste-Peace Scripts https://christyjade.thrivecart.com/copy-paste-peace-scripts/   📩 Questions or support: 00:00): Queens, if you are highly sensitive, there is a reason certain people don't just annoy you. They completely dysregulate you. And it's not because you're weak or dramatic or overreacting. It's because your nervous system notices things others were trained to ignore. It's actually a gift. Love it. I've got the gift. Do you? Stay tuned. Welcome to your Thursday Thrive In Five, your five minute pause from the chaos, the gaslighting, and that text you knew better than to reply to. Take a breath queen. This one's for you. All right. So tonight's episode is a continuation of Tuesdays, and there will be one more on next week's Tuesday episode, and then we'll get back to a Thrive in Five on Thursday. But I also just wanted to say hello. I was thinking in this new year, I might share a little more about just myself, even my journey, and just even some of my day-to-day stuff, because I want to feel a little more connected to my audience. (01:14) And I'd love you to hop over into my Facebook group. If you didn't know, I have a private Facebook group, and it is for all women, and it's private. And I ask questions to make sure no shady people coming in there, except myself. Just kidding. And yeah, but I just want to share more and be a little more engaged on a personal level. So a couple things I have going on to share with you. Number one, I finished my manuscript. I am going to be writing a narcissistic abuse recovery book. I am so excited. Well, I wrote it. Currently, I am going through one more pass and then my editor will be starting to do the developmental editing on it starting in March. And then from there, I'm still working on if I want to self-publish or traditional publish, my gut is saying traditional publishing, and I've got a couple calls lined up to talk with people about that. (02:17) It's really exciting stuff. This is one of my dreams. I always wrote. This is like we're having a biography. Don't worry, we'll get to the good stuff too, but this is good stuff, right? You know a little more about me? Maybe I can learn a little more about you. So when I was young, I loved, loved to write. I wrote poetry because what? Highly sensitive. Poetry stories. I have written a few novels. (02:46) I've published poetry book out there. So I've always been in the writing realm. And this is now my baby book because it's like my purpose work mixed with just this dream I had to complete a book that I felt safe sharing with the world and that would help people. So I am so excited. I can't talk about the title or anything yet, obviously, until I'm promoting it. But I am so grateful for you guys to be supporting me through listening to this podcast. It has kept me going, kept me motivated. All of your emails and just even seeing how many listens and though my podcast has grown to top 1.5% in the world makes me feel like it's all worth ... This is heavy stuff to talk about, right? And it's not easy having your own business and starting from zero and building. It's a process, but I've always been called to help women. (03:57) And then more recently with this abuse stuff, right? And trying to make it not fun, because abuse is never fun, but making it so you know that it doesn't have to define the rest of your life and that you can create a new version and grow and you're not damaged forever and make it as light as we possibly can. Yeah, we went through the hard stuff. So guess what? We're going to make up for some lost time and we go and get sparkly. So anyway, that's a little rant about my book. I also change, so I will be ... Unless there's some little exception somewhere, if you really need it, you can message me. But I am doing either three months, six month, or 12 month containers. I am so excited to do a year longer container. Sorry, it's like coach talk, but that just means ... I was like, oh my gosh, I'm not recording. (05:03) That would've been awful. It just means the amount of time, right? Like the program. So I have three programs. There's three month, six month, and 12 month. So I'm so excited about that. That will always be in my show notes too. And if you really just want to get a feel for things, but you really do want to commit, we can do a one hour session and then it'll be time to pick if you want three, six or 12 month program. So anyway, I am in love with my one-on-one sessions. We do coaching and we do somatic healing that is, if you don't know, healing from the body through the body, it is mind blowing work. You can click and read more about it in my show notes. So those are two big things. I won't go on and on, which I already did because that's me, right? (05:56) Now you know who I am. I'm a blubber. I'm a blabberist queen, but I'm so excited for this new year. I just have ... It was a hard year for me. This past year, my father passed away. Oh, this is supposed to be uplifting and I feel the lump in my throat. And that's tough, as many of you know, when you lose a parent. So it's been a tough year for me. I'm always silver lining and keep going and I'll always be that way, but this is one of the hardest years of my life. (06:32) So we're ready for 2026. Let's get into this episode for these highly sensitive people who are about to cry on her pink furry microphone. All right. So part one of this, we're kind of to talk about the sensitivity, unpredictability, and how that equals dysregulation. A lot of highly sensitive people, we get dysregulated more easily than other people. So we're built for depth, connection, and consistency. Okay? So when you're around people like narcissists who are very hot and cold, or maybe bipolar, manic depress, people who are up and down so much, emotionally inconsistent or intentionally manipulative, the body goes on alert and it's not because you're fragile, it's because this unpredictability feels very unsafe in your system, right? I mean, I think as it should. I love predictability. Can anyone say, "What? Do we get a what? " We love predictability. You like a good plan. (07:37) So going to part two, why you took it so personally, right? This is where a lot of the highly sensitive people get stuck. We talk about a lot of stuckness with narcissistic abuse. And many of us who have gone through abuse are highly sensitive. There is a correlation and that we'll get to that reason, but you didn't just notice the inconsistency. You tried to fix it because we're usually empaths and fixers and maybe people pleasers. You overexplained, you self-reflected, right? You might turn it on yourself. I did that a lot like, "Well, maybe I caused this, " which by the way, just so you know, and I'm so used to this, it sounds crazy that I have to say this, but I remember being on the side of not realizing how crazy this is, but you can't force someone to abuse you. It's the choice they make and you don't cause it. (08:39) No one makes someone abusive. They are abusive and you're a victim of it, okay? So just remember that. Play that back if you have to. But wondering, what did we do wrong? What did I do wrong? Because you were taught that harmony was your responsibility. And it could be from your childhood where you kind of play that role of the one, the peacekeeper or trying not to, maybe there was one person, two people, all the people, if you're lucky, in your family that were toxic, very intense in the not good way. You ended up somehow being that person who would try to walk on the eggshells and just try to create as much peace or calm or predictability as you could, which is a lot to carry around on your shoulders. So this is especially common for people who have experienced narcissistic or emotional abuse. (09:45) Like I said, could be childhood. It could be you had a great childhood and somehow you ended up with a master manipulator, a narcissist who conditioned you to act differently than you typically did.That's common. That's the thing that happens too. Many people though who end up in abusive situations, I'm not saying everybody, no blanket statements here, but did grow up either in an abusive situation or being dismissed or being manipulated or a very toxic family dynamic where you were comfortable with that. That's why you ended up in that relationship. That is not always, but that's a very common thing. From my own experience, from my client's experience, most of my clients did have some sort of toxic relationship dynamic, whether it was a parent, a sibling, even a grandma who lived with them, right? So it could look all different and fun ways. So part three, here is the gentle truth, and this is the confronting part. (10:56) Okay? Highly sensitive people don't attract unhealthy dynamics because you're sensitive. We are sensitive, right? (11:09) We stay or we stay longer because we're empathetic, self-aware and hopeful. I just met up with one of my guy friends recently and he was trying to understand the whole abuse thing. And in his mind, he couldn't understand to start with how anyone would tolerate being mistreated like that, right? Because some people, there's just no tolerance for it. So a lot of us, it's not just like only empathetic people, but we're empathetic, we're hopeful. It's like a mix of characteristics that make us stay and make us stay longer, like I said, right? And certain personalities or disorders, they feed off that. It's like, yes, they're staying. Now I know who my warm audience is. Do you know the cold and warm? Warm is like, oh, they're already warmed up and they're easier quote, pray. But it doesn't make you naive or weak. This makes you human, does make you maybe empathetic, highly sensitive if you are relating to any of this, but this is not a bad thing. (12:34) And I don't want you to view this as a bad characteristic. It's a beautiful part of us and I would not have it any other way. I would not want to be not as sensitive as I am, not as empathetic as I am. It has served me so well in my life too. Yes, it's gotten me hurt 20 times over by multiple people, I'll be honest, but it has really served me in so many beautiful ways and so many beautiful connections. And even in this, right? I'm able to do this work and help people because of that part of me and this job is amazing, right? (13:22) So let's toot our own horns, okay? Go highly sensitive people. So what actually changes the pattern? The shift isn't becoming colder, right? You don't want to say, "Okay, well now I'm going to throw a wall up." And this might happen naturally when you have left a narcissist. I'll be honest, after my narcissist situation, disconnection, I'll be honest, I went a little extreme to the other side and that can absolutely be part of the process. And I do find that with many, not all, but many of my clients, some do not build a wall and they might even get burned again and they get help and the help helps and they learn how to protect themselves without being cold and hardened and jaded, which for a little bit I was a little cold. I'll say that. I got a little chilly, a little chilly in here. (14:18) So it's becoming clearer and more embedded in your truth.That's a really important thing because if you don't know your truth, you can't create boundaries for yourself. And boundaries, remember, are not really for other people, they're for yourself. And that's something important. I have a boundaries course. It is amazing. And yes, I am tooting my own horn all over the place tonight, which is not something I normally do, but I am very, very adamant about people setting boundaries. And if you don't know how this is a reasonably priced course that you get 10 videos, they're dripped once a week for 10 weeks. Everything from evaluating your truth, I call it the hell yeses and hell nos, of your life to evaluate what you need to set boundaries with. And then we go into all the hows of boundary setting, the conversations, what to do if you set a boundary and someone comes back, all the boundary stuff for yourself and how to also navigate it by if you do have to have conversations and set them in that way, right? (15:34) Because some are for yourself that you're doing, you don't even have to tell anybody, right? So that boundaries course is always linked in my show notes. So when you stop managing other people's emotions, you start protecting your nervous system. I love it. And that's when everything changes. So if you're realizing this pattern has repeated and you're tired of all the analyzing and doing it alone, this is where my one-on-one coaching comes in. I do three, six months now because narcissistic abuse, though you can definitely heal, it's not like an overnight take a pill, right? But that being said, three months goes by quick and we do amazing work in three months. And I have had clients stay with me a year. I never had a year program, but they just kept signing on for three months and three months and three months. And their transitions, their transformations, I mean, are just out of this world, just like themselves. (16:46) But with all the glitter, all the confidence, so many changes, like changing careers, starting their own businesses, entering amazing relationships with healthy people, feeling like they're actually an amazing role model for their kids when they used to feel shame and guilt that they had stayed in something. It's just endless the benefits of doing coaching mixed with the somatic healing. (17:14) It's the best. I just love it. When I get off of every call, I literally sometimes get a lump in my throat. I'm like, "This work is so amazing." Especially when we do the somatic stuff, it's so powerful, so powerful. Okay, so you know where my links are. Show notes. Everyone say it with me, show notes. And so in the next episode, that will be Tuesday, we're going to talk about how highly sensitive people actually heal, how boundaries become regulating instead of terrifying. Because look, for highly sensitive people, oh, it's terrifying, right? It's terrifying. That is the only word we can use for it sometimes because the unpredictability of what's going to come back and if you're with someone obviously, which we'd love you to get out of that relationship, but if you're still with someone who is not treating you well, or if you're outside of it, but you still have these traits, it's going to continue in your relationships or with friends or whatever, we can't be terrified of boundaries anymore. (18:28) To live a full life that's authentically you, that's the thing. You have to find that truth. Like I said, evaluating your truth, the hells and knows of your life. So you can say, "What boundaries do I even need and how am I going to set these boundaries?" You might feel lost, overwhelmed, almost like guilt if you do set a boundary. That's why the program I have really talks about that and how you can do it in a way where you are not saying, "You need to not do this anymore exactly." It's more like what I'm going to do. And that's a much better feeling for us, highly sensitive people, isn't it? I'm going to do this. It's not telling someone how to live their life. It's more like, I mean, let me think of a simple example. (19:21) Someone yelling at me all the time, okay? Let's say that. Let's say that happened. What do I say that you're yelling and you can jush it up. As I've gotten older, I don't have time for the softy sandwich as my BFF calls it. I don't have time for that anymore. So that's where I'm like, I'm a little more direct. So you can always take my words and soften them up and I can help you soften them if you need to in our one-on-one. But I just, in my life, I don't really do that anymore, but I'll just ... So you could say, I would say directly probably, "Look, I'm not going to be talked to like that. So just so you know, if you do choose to be yelling at me like that, I am going to walk out. I am going to leave. I'm going to whatever." You're saying what you are going to do. (20:13) You're not controlling them. (20:16) And then you could soften that up and you could do the sandwiches, right? You got the soft bread on each side. So you got like, "I've really, really enjoyed spending time with you. We have so much fun together, but there's times when you're raising your voice and it makes me feel on edge and I don't love that feeling." So the next time that happens for my own body and whatever, mental, whatever you want to call it without sounding dramatic or something. For my own vibe, I'm going to have to take a break and leave or whatever, hang up the phone, I'm going to have to do X, Y, Z. And then you can put that soft bun on the other side, soft buns. What kind of podcast is this? And you can say, "But really, I would love for that not to happen because I really would like to continue this friendship with you, " or whatever it is. (21:17) Me, I'm like, "You mistreat me ." Okay. All right. So where were we? We were talking about ... Oh yeah, I was saying how terrifying it is and sensitivity can actually become your strength again, right? So we'll talk about that in the next episode and yeah, I guess that's it. Let me see. How long was this mamma jamma? Oh, it doesn't say. So I'm so excited. I just got back y'all from karaoke. So if you don't know, we have a little bit of a musical family and my husband actually sings, and I want to hear about all of your hobbies in my Facebook group, but my husband sings and plays a bunch of different instruments. I sing. I say that lightly because, I mean, I don't know. I wish I had a better voice, but people say I'm a singer. My husband says I'm a singer. (22:22) He said, "That did really good tonight." I did karaoke. I did Shania Twain. Anyone know that song? (22:29) Better walk the line. Squeeze. Anyway, and my daughter, she was elite singer in a band. She's 11 now, but when she was like nine and 10, and now she's doing musical theater. And my friend texted me, I was like, "Oh my God, they have karaoke at this place that we go to. " She's like, "Come over." So we were eating dinner. I was like, "You want to go karaoke?" And I said, oh, she said, "Have Kora sing." And I was like, "Do you want to sing? I mean, she got to go to bed." But I was like, "What a cool mom would I be if I just spontaneously was like, all right, dinner's over. Let's go sing." So I was like, "This'll be a fun memory." So we finished up the dishes and she got dressed and we went, we took over the karaoke. There's only one other person who sang before we got there and then it was us because it was like the first night they were doing it. (23:31) So Kora sang four songs. I sang one. My husband, who actually has been in bands, pretended he was shy. He is shy in real life. He's very shy, but he said he don't like karaoke. He likes being in his band with his familiar and like having practiced a song. So he was too uncomfortable to do one. I was uncomfortable too, but I did it. I even shimmy shaked around a little bit, a little hip action, little head wobble. (24:02) So that was fun. And can we say US citizens of the world, not to get political, but it's really crazy out there no matter what side you're on. Again, I don't want to get political on this podcast, but our country I feel like is just so crazy right now. There's just a lot. So it was nice to escape to karaoke, but I feel like I feel bad for people who can't escape in that way, right? There's just a lot going on. It's kind of horrifying. And I know other countries are looking in and maybe horrified as well. So I know that's like a little off topic and I really don't like to go there, but I just have to be real. You guys know me. I'm very real. And it's a hard time for a lot of people. No matter what side of the political coin you're on, what race you are, what gender you are, and some have it way worse than others, but it's just a hard time. (25:14) So I would like to throw out some prayers. I am a God woman, so I want to throw out some prayers just for our country. And if you guys are God people, whoever's out there as God person or a woo-woo universe person, please say some prayers just for our country and our world as a whole, right? Why not throw the whole world in there? (25:40) And try to focus too on what we do have. There's a lot of hardship, but there's a lot of love and a lot of peacemakers and helpers. They always say what when there's a crisis? Is it crisis? I don't know that, but there's that quote, I'm going to misquote it. If there's a crisis, look for the helpers, like trying to always see the light in the dark. So I'm big on that, but sometimes it's hard. Sometimes it's hard. So, and I know with our heavy stuff we talk about, sometimes it's hard too. So if you're in a dark situation, which I know a lot of you are, you're not alone, come join us in the Facebook group and yeah, hear more about your highly sensitive ass in our next episode. Okay? All right. I love you guys. We're in this together. Put your deuces up, smooches, deuces. (26:39) See you the next time.

Have you ever walked away from a conversation feeling completely drained — replaying what was said, questioning yourself, or wondering why certain people affect you so deeply? In this episode, we explore the difference between being highly sensitive and being chronically exhausted from emotional unpredictability. If you’ve been healing from narcissistic or emotional abuse and still wonder why your body reacts so strongly in certain relationships, this episode offers clarity, relief, and a nervous-system-based explanation that finally makes sense. This isn’t about being “too sensitive.” It’s about understanding how your body adapted — and what it actually needs to heal. Your Next Step in Healing If this episode explains you — and you’re realizing you’ve been trying to heal through willpower instead of safety and support — you don’t have to do this alone. I work 1:1 with women healing from narcissistic and emotional abuse who feel deeply, think deeply, and are ready to feel grounded, clear, and safe in their own bodies again. ✨ 3-Month Coaching Container Focused support to stabilize your nervous system, strengthen boundaries, and begin rebuilding peace and self-trust. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/transformational-coaching-quarterly/ ✨ 6-Month Coaching Container Extended support to deepen the work, practice boundaries in real life, and integrate new patterns with consistency. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/6-month-queens-of-peace-program/ ✨ 12-Month Coaching Container Long-term mentorship and steady support while you rebuild your life at a grounded, sustainable pace. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/12-month-queens-of-peace-program/ Additional Support & Resources Boundaries Pocket Guide (Free) Learn how to set and hold boundaries without spiraling into guilt or over-explaining. https://christyjade.ck.page/ce79ea9250 Copy-Paste-Peace Scripts https://christyjade.thrivecart.com/copy-paste-peace-scripts/ Empowered Boundaries Course https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/empowered-boundaries/ Join the Free Facebook Community https://www.facebook.com/groups/christyjade 📩 Questions or support: 00:00): If you are here because you have been healing from narcissistic abuse or emotional abuse, I want you to know this episode is still for you. This isn't me changing direction. It's me adding some context because so many people who were deep or are deeply affected by toxic relationships of any kind are also highly sensitive. Lucky us, we get to be a good old target. So no one really explains why that matters. So we're going to talk about a little bit of this, a little bit of that today. Welcome to your Thursday Thrive In Five, your five minute pause from the chaos, the gaslighting, and that text you knew better than to reply to. Take a breath queen, this one's for you. (00:52) Okay. So if you've ever wondered why certain people leave you completely drained, why you replay conversations in your head, why you feel things so deep, and maybe you've been told you're too sensitive, or why healing felt kind of linear, this episode might finally explain some of that to you. And more importantly, it might help you stop blaming yourself. I hear a lot of clients with a lot of shame and blame, and we're here to kick that to the curb. Okay. So are you highly sensitive or just attuned? So let's talk about what being highly sensitive actually means. Without the labels or the quizzes, highly sensitive people are not weak. They are deeply perceptive. So your nervous system picks up on the tone shifts in a conversation on emotional undercuts, right? Unspoken things, unspoken tension, and you pick up on inconsistencies. So you don't just hear words, you actually feel energy. (02:01) So someone could be saying one thing and you're feeling another. So you could sense, maybe you sense lying or deception. So you can be highly sensitive, but also a people pleaser. So that can be a mix of where you may even feel something's off, but you have been told you're too sensitive or you think too much or you're too analytical. So you kind of second guess yourself when you do actually get these kind of intuitive hits. So like I said, you don't just hear the words, you feel the energy. You're just an energy queen. That's all. It's great. So in safe environments, this is actually a gift. So yay, but not all environments are safe as we know. So in an unsafe or emotionally unpredictable environment, that same sensitivity can become very exhausting. So why do some people affect you so much? Here's the part not everyone explains in the narc world, right? (03:08) But your sensitivity didn't cause this harm. So yes, in a way, we can attract a certain somebody by being seen as someone who is empathetic and has a bleeding heart or whatever. But don't let go of it. Okay? We want to keep that. It's still okay to have, but it actually magnifies the impact. So it doesn't cause the harm, it magnifies the impact. If you grew up around control, a controlling person, maybe a parent, maybe a sibling, emotional volatility, people who made you doubt yourself or you weren't good enough feeling, your nervous system learned to stay alert. So when someone is inconsistent, emotionally manipulative, dismissive, we know that one probably a little too well, or hot and cold, right? Maybe they will be all about you and even controlling, monitoring where you're going. They want to know where you are, they're like that. And then they will punish you with the silent treatment. (04:20) And I say punish because that's what it is. Even though you don't deserve a punishment, they will punish you if you ... Anything. It's a narcissist, right? So especially in a narcissistic situation, they're going to punish you no matter what in their abuse cycle. So part of that punishment sometimes can look like, yes, the screaming, the yelling, the violence, it can also look like silent treatment. So there's a lot of hot and cold and your body doesn't see that as just a personality. It experiences it as a threat, right? Which makes sense. It's not drama, it's biology. Your body's like, "This isn't okay." The inconsistency, the up and down. This doesn't seem right. So many highly sensitive people don't realize they were in emotionally manipulative or narcissistic dynamics because they were taught to look inward instead of questioning the environment outward, right? So this is where that people pleaser can come in, right? (05:26) You learn to ask, "What's wrong with me? " Instead of, "Why doesn't this feel safe?" I want you to sit with that. Okay? You learn to ask, "What's wrong with me? " Instead of, "Why doesn't this feel safe?" So that habit alone can keep you stuck, right? If you're constantly just, you've been conditioned to go, "What did I do? It must be me. (06:00) " Going inward. Okay. So why isn't willpower the answer here? This is why the whole just set boundaries or just stop caring doesn't really work. You know I'm the boundary queen. I love good boundaries, but it doesn't always work. With highly sensitive people, it's not about being like the tough exterior boundary and it's not yapping at that person. It's not going outward, right? You do need to set boundaries for yourself, but you need support, safety, and regulation. So healing doesn't have to be about fixing yourself. It's about teaching your nervous system that it is safe to relax again. Teaching your nervous system, yourself, you're out of this situation, hopefully if you're still in it, let's help you out of there. But if you're on the other side, like most of my clients, on the other side, either on the verge of getting out, getting out, or you've been out, but you're still stuck in many ways, it's teaching your nervous system to go, "I'm safe. (07:18) I'm safe. I'm safe out of the situation or I'm going to be safe very soon. Hopefully you're in a safe space. If not, always read my show notes for the phone numbers for a resource." We're going to dip into this. I'm going to do a couple more episodes around this topic just because a lot of you have been asking just, I've heard many questions like, "Why did this happen? Why am I like this? Or why did they pick me? " All of these questions, which it's great to question, but there's a difference in asking a question, asking a question, feeling like you're the problem and you're the reason why, right? And like you're at fault. (08:09) That's what we want to kind of undo and help you understand so you can let go of that guilt or feeling like this is your fault. And if you had just done X, Y, Z, this wouldn't have happened. Okay? We're not going to blame or shame ourselves anymore. Shine your crowns, little ladies. Okay? So if this episode explains you and you're realizing you've been trying to heal through willpower instead of support, because you do need that support and you want to do the somatic deeper work that is mind blowing, you don't have to do it alone. Here I am, Christie Jade, we can do one-on-one work. And this is for women who feel deeply, think deeply and are ready to feel safe in their own bodies again. So if that resonates, I'll always have the link in the description, in the notes, the show notes, they're called in my podcast show notes. (09:08) For every episode, it has my options for working with me one-on-one. I have three different programs and starting this new year out, empowered, ready for your next chapter, your next book queen. Okay? Let's just do the whole, throw the whole thing away. Start over. No. There's beautiful parts of us from the past. I don't want anyone to feel like you are damaged, that you are ruined. I've heard this stuff from my clients and it breaks my heart. I'm telling you, I've been where you are and I have a freaking amazing, thriving, joyful, peaceful ... Can I say peaceful in capital letters? Because who knew I could have peace at some point in my life? Life, right? I did a lot of work to get here and I have learned so many tools. I have so many certifications and all, especially the somatic healing is my baby. (10:07) I do the coaching, yes. I do the Reiki or whatever you want. I got it all in my little magic toolbox, but somatic healing is the thing that truly, truly transformed me. And it's just amazing work. I cannot suggest it enough. Obviously, I'm here. I would love to help you. I do have limited spots, but just going through this transformation where you build confidence, self-trust again, and just getting that sparkle back. And I know it sounds like, okay, I get the sparkle back. It's so vague, but I think you guys know. I think you guys know what a narcissistic relationship does to your sparkle, how it dulls you, how sometimes you don't recognize yourself anymore. (11:02) It changes you, but that doesn't mean you can't find her again, or maybe you never fully knew her because you had a narcissistic parent who told her since you can remember she's in there. You can have peace and joy. So I would love to help you get that in your life. So if you ... Again, the link is always in the show notes and in the next episode, we're going to talk about why highly sensitive people are more impacted by certain personalities. And what finally changes when you stop trying to manage yourself and start protecting your nervous system because sensitivity is not the problem being unsupported is, right? We need a little support, doesn't everybody? But highly sensitive people, we can need a little more. And that's not a bad thing. It's a beautiful thing. So if this resonated, take a breath, let it land, and I will meet you in the next episode. (12:07) I'm not going to do my thrive in fives until, let's see, next Thursday, because I'm going to do this little mini series. So I'm going to do this little mini series, which will be today, Thursday, and next Tuesday. And the following Thursday will be a thrive in five to kind of seal this series up, zip it on up, and then we'll continue with another topic. All right? So have a fabulous day. You are looking amazing and I hope feeling amazing, because you are amazing. Let's end with it. We haven't done I ams, little affirmations. Let's do a few of those to close out. Let's inhale through our nose and exhale, inhale through the nose and exhale and repeat after me. I am perceptive. I am intuitive because I'm a queen. God, I love that last one. All right. I will see you in the next episode. (13:22) Love y'all.

If the new year feels confusing, quiet, or emotionally heavy after narcissistic abuse, this episode explains why — and what it actually means. After narcissistic abuse, healing isn’t about becoming a “new you.” It’s about shedding the survival identity you were forced into and reclaiming a self-led identity rooted in safety, peace, and self-trust. I offer longer-term 1:1 coaching containers designed to help you stabilize your nervous system, rebuild self-trust, and reclaim your peace in a grounded, sustainable way — especially during emotionally charged seasons. ✨ 3-Month Coaching Container Focused support to stabilize your nervous system, strengthen boundaries, and begin rebuilding peace and self-trust. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/transformational-coaching-quarterly/ ✨ 6-Month Coaching Container Extended support to deepen the work, practice boundaries in real life, and integrate new patterns with consistency. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/6-month-queens-of-peace-program/ ✨ 12-Month Coaching Container Long-term mentorship and steady support while you rebuild your life at a grounded, sustainable pace. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/12-month-queens-of-peace-program/ Additional Support & Resources Boundaries Pocket Guide (Free) Learn how to set and hold boundaries without spiraling into guilt or over-explaining. https://christyjade.ck.page/ce79ea9250 Copy-Paste-Peace Scripts https://christyjade.thrivecart.com/copy-paste-peace-scripts/ Empowered Boundaries Course https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/empowered-boundaries/ Join the Free Facebook Community https://www.facebook.com/groups/christyjade Questions or support: 00:00): Oh, we are coming up on the New York Queens. It is almost 2026. And if the new year feels strange to you, a little out of the ordinary, maybe you're not rushing into your goals or your vision boards. I love a good vision board, by the way. If you feel quieter like you want to be not so peopley, it's not because you're stuck. It's because the version of you that survived narcissistic abuse is no longer who you are becoming. Today, we're going to talk about identity after narcissistic abuse and who you are when you're no longer being controlled, manipulated, or emotionally hijacked by somebody else. (00:49) Welcome to your Thursday Thrive In Five, your five minute pause from the chaos, the gaslighting, and that text you knew better than to reply to. Take a breath queen. This one's for you. Let's start here. This part really, really matters. The identity you had to become to survive. Okay? When you are in a narcissistic relationship, you don't have any kind where you are being controlled. You don't just lose time and energy. You lose access to yourself. I call it the solid brick. We're born this beautiful golden brick that has all these amazing things. That's us. That's our authentic self. And as we grow, and this could be in childhood, if it's also society and other people's shoulds and whatever, we've got all this dirt and stuff just covering that shiny, beautiful gold brick. If you are in a toxic or narcissistic relationship, it's basically a bunch of bullshit all over you, right? (02:00) Until you come onto the other side, grab hands with Christie Jade and we pull you out, wipe you off, shine you up, get your crown back. But you are losing access to that self, that golden version of you. So you may have had glimpses of it. You could have never really known it fully because it was lost also in childhood. You could have had parents and then toxic relationships after you were out of your house, what other situation is. But you become the version of you who stays alert, the version who anticipates others' moods. You know the eggshell walking on them. Yeah. The version who explains, well, over explains, softens, edits what you say adjusts or the version who survives by being easy. The people pleasing can come in there. And here's the truth no one really says out loud, but yours truly will because you know I'm a truth speaker. (03:05) Women don't leave a narcissist and step into freedom. They leave and they bring the survival identity with them. Okay? (03:20) That freedom is not something you just walk into immediately. So if you're thinking, why don't I know what I want? Not necessarily just relationship wise and different aspects of life. Why do I still feel on edge? Why doesn't the new year feel exciting? It's because your nervous system has not caught up to the fact that you are safe now. So why does the new year feel weird after narcissistic abuse? The new year brings space. It's a new space and the space can feel terrifying when chaos was familiar. I just had this talk with one of my clients today. You are so familiar with chaos. It's not saying you want it. It's not saying, "Oh, I desire chaos or I thrive off drama or whatever." It's just, especially if you've been going through something like this for years, it can really be terrifying when you now have space, openness, which is the opposite of chaos. (04:36) You can be scared to even shut your thoughts off because it's too damn quiet in your head. We don't know what to do with that, right? (04:48) I'm saying we, because I've been there. You know I have been there and I'm on the other side and it's so nice to be able to shut my brain off. I'm not saying I never have little moments, but from what it was to now is insane in a good way. So you're not being pulled anymore. You're not reacting the way you used to. You're not performing. I'm not saying you never do. There's little bits of this we may still have trickles of, but in general, on this like twenty four seven under the thumb of a narcissist, you are always analyzing, waiting, worrying, eggshelling and performing, putting on a facade and being controlled and told what to do, not to do, worried of making the wrong moves, all of that. So instead of excitement, you feel maybe flat, maybe confused, unmotivated, or maybe oddly emotional, different emotions. (05:50) It doesn't have to just be one specific emotion of anger or sadness. It could be sadness. It could be emotional exhaustion. Again, one of my clients today was talking about that. That's a common thing. After you've gone through such a big transition outside the narcissistic abuse recovery, you're now here, you're already in this other space and now it's a new year. It's a lot. It's a lot to process to take in, even though it seems like it should be exciting and freeing and just a huge amount of relief. Two things can be true at once. There can be relief and there can be pretty much terror, discomfort at the very least. So all of that is not failure on your part. It's what we call identity grief. So you are grieving the woman who held everything together. Sometimes we can take pride in that. The woman who was strong because she had to be. (06:59) Can we all clap for that one? I know you're familiar with that. And that's why this could be its own whole episode about how we can feel so strong and then so weak at the same time and coming out of something being like, "I thought I was so strong and like, damn, how was I so weak? I stayed in that. " It's very mind blowing, right? But you're grieving that. You're grieving the version of you who knew her role, even if it was killing her, you knew your role. It was specific. So let me say this clearly. If the new year feels quiet, it doesn't mean you're lost. It means you're just no longer being controlled. And this is obviously a great thing, but it doesn't mean it's going to feel a hundred percent great right away. You're going to have mixed emotions. So this new identity is not new you, itself led you. (08:11) So this is where people can get it wrong. You don't need this major glow up. You don't need a personality overhaul. You don't need a brand new shiny label, though I love shiny things. You need to stop living reactively. (08:31) The narcissist trained you what? Respond, defend, explain, actually overexplain once again, and earn your peace. Your new identity is self-led. It's not narc reactive anymore. And that's great. That's the good news is it's great, but you've got to get used to this. So that looks like you deciding instead of explaining. So this is putting almost a pressure on you now. You have to decide and make all your own decisions, which can sound amazing and freeing, but it's also maybe uncomfortable or maybe just paralyzing because you don't know exactly what to say, what to do, what you want. What do you want? Maybe you don't even know that after all you've been through. It looks like choosing instead of justifying. (09:38) God, I don't miss having to justify all the time. It means listening to your body instead of overriding it. How many of you have all of these feelings inside and you have to ignore them and you have to white knuckle through? You have to get through the moments. You have to, you have to, you have to. Your body is screaming, "I had to. " Right? And we're letting go of that. It's a lot to let go of. And it's also letting calm be normal, not suspicious. This is big. Okay? I'm going to say it again. Letting calm be normal, not suspicious because guess what? In healthy relationships, calm, peace, it's normal. Feels normal. It feels good. Feels like love. Calm in a toxic relationship is like, oh shit, something's wrong or something's coming. There's no calm. There's no true calm. It's just the calm before the storm in a toxic narcissistic relationship. (10:56) Okay. And this one, maybe write this one on down. (11:04) Your new identity doesn't need to be proven. It needs to be protected. We need to protect her. She's in there already. We're finding her. We're not really creating. I love to say creating because it's empowering to me to say that way, but we're really kind of re-igniting her. She's in there. Might not recognize her. She might be buried under some boo shit, but she's there. But it doesn't need to be proven to anyone. We have this compulsion to prove. We're going to get rid of that compulsion. I'm working on that with several clients right now. The compulsion to prove ourselves, the compulsion to be liked, be good enough, the compulsion to seek approval. Working on all those things with my clients in the somatic sense, healing from the body. And it's amazing work, and we need to protect it. So it's kind of like some rewiring and some protection because you're a damn queen and you need to protect it. (12:20) You are gold. What do we do with gold? We protect it. All right? So here's three identity anchors for the new year for you. Okay? So forget the whole resolution thing. Forget just becoming better. We're going to choose one identity anchor for you instead. Number one, I don't abandon myself anymore. Not for peace, not for approval, not to keep things smooth. (12:56) I no longer abandon myself anymore. That can be one an anchor. Another one, I decide before I explain. So you don't owe context to people who misuse access to you. You don't know them that. You decide. You don't have to explain shit to nobody. I remember my husband, I was so conditioned my whole life to overexplain myself. And if you know, you know, it is a compulsion. It is hardwired in there, it feels like, but it's not hardwired. I got rid of it. It's beautiful. And my husband turned to me one day and he said, I was explaining it was an RSVP to a party. And I was like, write in a damn paragraph, this compulsive, just like, "Oh God, I got to write all the reasons that overexplaining why I couldn't come to a damn party because I can't come. We don't need to write an essay." And he said, "Why do you feel the need to explain yourself in that detail?" He felt bad for me. (14:13) He's like, "That's a lot. That's a lot on you. " And I was like, "I never thought about that. I never thought about it. " And I was like, hmm, why do I? Because I've been conditioned to, because of my life and my past. So I stopped doing that. I actually, I love this book. It's called The Best Yes. I will try to remember to link it in the show notes, but if not, it's by Lisa. I can never think of her last name, but it's L-Y-S-A, I believe. But the best yes, I haven't read it in a while, but when I read it, it was really great. It was when I noticed that I was overexplaining and overbooking and just like that people pleasery side of me of trying to be good enough for everybody all the time. And it was a good book. (15:09) It's the best yes. It's like putting you, your family, and God basically first, but it's a good read. Okay? Anchor number three, peace is my baseline, not something I earn. I think this might be the big mama jama that you might want to cling to. Others are good too. I mean, I write some good shit. What am I going to say? Just kidding. But number three, I know peace is one of, because look, I've done all the market research with you guys. I talked to you guys. I have you fill out things when you get my Facebook group, things you desire. So many people just want peace. I just want peace. That is one of the biggest words. Is this peaceful for me? Is this person ... Do I feel peaceful when I'm around them? Do I leave them feeling at peace? So when I'm making new friends, when I'm deciding on things to do, oh, this party, am I going to feel at peace going? (16:07) It doesn't mean it has to be calm and like we're all zenned out. I can go party it up and dance and still be at peace or feel peaceful, right? But I know that is a buzzword for my audience. So I think this will probably be one of your favorites to hold onto. Peace is my baseline, not something I earn. So the second part of that is let's stop trying to earn our place, to earn our good enough, to earn our success by doing, doing, doing, being somebody else, doing for other people just because we have to abandon ourself. We said not to do that, right? You don't hustle for calm anymore. We're not going to hustle for calm because how crazy does that sound? Yet so many of us do it. (17:03) You're hustling to get to what? Our goal really should be peace and calm and joy. For me, that's not hustled. That's not proving myself anxiously awaiting other people's approvals and all of that that we might have done, but we're not now because this is 2026, baby. All right? So you protect it. Again, you've got to protect your peace. I mean, how many times can I say it on this podcast? Peace bubbles up, baby. Put your golden peace bubble up around you. Just imagine it. When someone's coming into your space, just put that bubble up and say, no, you cannot pass go. You cannot collect $200 from my peace bubble. Okay? So pick one of those. I'm a big fan of number three and let it guide your choices this year. Right? You could just use peace as your word. Does this give me peace? And not everything, obviously. (18:12) Some things like, I mean, does brushing ... Actually, brushing my teeth does bring me peace because then I don't have expensive dental bills, right? But you know what I mean. Okay? So what not to do this January? Quick button port. Don't rush your healing. We are not in a race. We're here for the long haul and that's how you're going to get the results that actually stick. There's no magic pill, but there is magic somatic healing. If you talk to my clients, it is. It's some good stuff. All right? And if you want to sign up, I have three, six and ... Wait, I can't even remember now. Geez, three months, six month, and one year programs. So I will put all of those in the show notes so you can check them out and sign up for which one feels good to you. Obviously, with each package, if you are committing to a longer time, I give you a reward by giving you a little lower price overall because I love committers. (19:26) I love people who are like, "I'm here for it. I'm here for the transformation." I love it. Okay. So don't recreate the chaos because calm feels unfamiliar. This can be a tough one. Start to feel the need like, "Oh my God, it's too calm. It's too calm." That's good. Remind yourself. That's why where the somatic healing does really come in very, very handy. When you're in this in between, right? When you're like, your body is not caught up with your mind. It's like, "I need chaos. What's happening? It's too quiet in here." So you're either going to do the thoughts or you're going to do just the go, go, go, or the throw yourself into work or the intense workouts or whatever. Don't force motivation. Build your safety first. Okay? So healing after narcissistic abuse isn't about doing more. It's about stopping the patterns that require you to disappear. (20:30) Okay? Stopping the patterns that require you to disappear. I mean, the authentic you disappears. The real you is here. We want her. We want her back. So before I wrap, not wrap like Eminem rap, but wrap it up, wrap. I want you to do this with me. Put one hand on your heart. Focus on the support under you. Chair, couch, wherever you are, ground. I don't know where you are. You in a bush and quietly say. You can repeat after me. Okay. I am no longer who I had to be. I am choosing who I get to be. (21:24) Now let your body feel that. Not your mind. I'm choosing who I get to be and I'm releasing this person I had to be. Oh, let her go. Let your shoulders feel that and say like, "That's okay.That's what I'm supposed to feel like. I'm supposed to feel like that. " Okay? So if this episode resonated, here's what I want you to know. You don't rebuild identity alone, right?This is heavy stuff, it's hard stuff, but if you work with me, we can have fun doing it. And I got some tools and tricks up my sleeve if you didn't know. And you can reclaim your sense of self, regulate your nervous system, right? Because your body is screaming probably and stop living in reaction mode. And I have these one-on-one coaching sessions. We do coaching. I help you understand some things about narcissists. If you want to go into that a little bit, some do. (22:34) Some are kind of past that. Understand things about yourself, why you may have done certain things, why in this situation, any guilt you have. We're releasing all of this stuff, understanding and releasing, understand the narcissist. If you're co-parenting, dealing with that, I am going to coach you on dealing with the co-parent. Or if you do have a mother or a sibling, someone you absolutely feel like you have to have some sort of contact with or you're trying to get out of contact with them, we work on all that stuff. But then the other beautiful part that is missing from a lot of coaching is this somatic healing side that is healing from the body that is missing from so much in the world because our bodies remember, they save, they store everything. You get sick, you get cancer, you get ... And I'm not trying to be all woo-woo and weird, but we know this, right? (23:28) You know stress causes a lot of stuff in your body and you get to build self-trust and self-confidence again through releasing these old stories through your body, these stories that these conditions, right? You've been conditioned, you've been controlled. You get to release all of this. Okay? So if you're interested in that, like I said, I will put the links in my little description area in whatever podcast you are watching. Go click away, read about it, sign up for one that feels good to you. And if you want a self ... That's that one-on-one huge transformation. If you want a self-paced, lower ticket item, empowered boundaries course is amazing if you really suck at setting boundaries or sticking to boundaries. I'll put it plainly. So that's there. And I have a couple freebies, my Facebook group, women like you up in there. I'm going to be doing more lives this year and there and stuff, maybe some group calls. (24:34) So make sure to sign up for the Facebook community. It's private, all women, and there's questions to make sure that there's no bots or anybody creepy hanging out in there. Okay? And that's why you have to fill out the questions too, to get in. So everything's in the show notes. You were never broken, baby. You were solid gold. You're still solid gold. That brick is still in there, right? So we just got to sweep all that nasty crap off of you and help you shine again. You get to decide who you are without anyone controlling your life. And that might feel weird. It might feel uncomfortable, but if you keep healing, you keep doing the work, you will get to release that and be ... You will find that joy. I feel like a lot of people feel like, "Oh, I'll never be joyful or how I used to be. (25:30) " It's not true. So let's cut that shit out. (25:36) Beauty happens when you believe and when you receive. So we work on all those things in my coaching. So also Thursday, well, it'll be literally New Year's, right? And I will be doing a Thrive In Five quickie if you don't know if you don't follow me. Hello, welcome. We have our regular longer episodes on Tuesdays and our Thrives in Fives, which is a little somatic healing sesh in five minutes or less or sometimes a little longer because I'm chatty if you don't know, but no more than 10 for sure, I don't think, on Thursdays. Okay? So also make sure you're following my podcast so you get the notification that says, "Yo, bitches, I'm back." Of course you want that. So make sure you hit the follow. I am on YouTube now if you like to see people when they talk. I don't know why you'd want to see this, but some people say, "Do video." So I'm doing video on the YouTube. (26:41) So I will try to put that link. I always forget to put that link in there, but I am on YouTube. It's Christie Jade there too. You can find me even if you just Google it up. And yeah, that's it, I think. Happy new year and not happy new you, but happy finding that amazing golden brick inside of you, bringing that back out. I'm here for it. Are you here for it? You in? All right. Come sign up so we can do some amazing one-on-one work. All right. Smooches and deuces!

Christmas is supposed to feel joyful — but for many women healing from narcissistic abuse, it feels heavy, tense, and emotionally exhausting. If you notice anxiety creeping in, your body staying on high alert, or old wounds resurfacing at Christmas — even if you’re no longer in the relationship — this episode will help you understand why. In this Christmas special, we’re breaking down why narcissists often get worse during the holidays, how Christmas activates trauma stored in the nervous system, and what you can do to protect your peace without forcing yourself to feel festive. In this episode, you’ll learn: Why narcissists are especially triggered by Christmas and family-centered events How holiday expectations create the perfect environment for manipulation and control Why your nervous system reacts before your mind can explain it Common ways narcissists sabotage Christmas, both subtly and overtly How to create a more regulated, emotionally safe holiday experience Boundaries Pocket Guide (Free) Learn how to set and hold boundaries without spiraling into guilt or over-explaining. https://christyjade.ck.page/ce79ea9250 If you’re ready for deeper, supported healing — especially during emotionally charged seasons like the holidays — I offer longer-term 1:1 containers designed to help you stabilize, rebuild, and reclaim your peace over time. 3-Month Container Focused support to stabilize your nervous system, strengthen boundaries, and begin rebuilding peace and self-trust. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/transformational-coaching-quarterly/ 6-Month Container Extended support to deepen the work, practice boundaries in real life, and integrate new patterns with consistency. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/6-month-queens-of-peace-program/ 12-Month Container Long-term mentorship and steady support while you rebuild your life at a grounded, sustainable pace. https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/12-month-queens-of-peace-program/ Additional Support & Resources Copy-Paste-Peace Scripts: https://christyjade.thrivecart.com/copy-paste-peace-scripts/ Empowered Boundaries Course: https://shethrives.thrivecart.com/empowered-boundaries/ Free Facebook Community: https://www.facebook.com/groups/christyjade Questions or support: https://christyjade.podbean.com/e/ep-5-the-grey-rock-method-how-to-disconnect-from-narcissistic-abusers/   TRANSCRIPT Speaker 1 (00:00): Hello, queens. If you have ever found yourself thinking, why does Christmas feel so heavy? Or why am I on edge when everyone else seems excited? This episode is for you because when you've dealt with a narcissist, Christmas doesn't really feel festive. It feels like pressure, performance, and emotional landmines. So today we're going to talk about why narcissists get worse at Christmas and why your body reacts before your mind even knows what's happening. Have you finally broken free from that narcissist creepy crawly web but still feel stuck in fear? Wish you could trust yourself again and take your life back? Well, you're in the right place, Queen. I'm Christie, wife, mom, and narcissistic abuse recovery coach. I've walked the messy road, wasted money on the wrong therapist and dried ice, and had a come to Jesus moment to get me here. To feel free, I had to reconnect with me, set boundaries that stuck, and find healing methods that actually lasted. (01:07): Now, I've created a plan that's empowering, doable, and yes, even fun, because I'm sparkly in fun, so of course it's going to be fun. So if you're ready to break cycles, reclaim your peace and trust yourself again, this podcast is for you. So steep that chamomile tea, silence all that crazy chaos out there, and let's cue your royal glow up. Okay. So welcome back. I'm Christie Jade. If you are new here, welcome, welcome. This is Narcissistic Abuse Recovery. All the fun things about understanding the narcissist, recovering from the narcissist, starting your new life maybe without the narcissist or how to navigate if you do have to keep in touch with the narcissist, right? But the holidays can be so tricky in all of those ways. So if you're listening to this wall wrapping presents, sitting in your car, hiding in the bathroom, maybe with the chocolate, or trying to hold it together while everyone else is talking about how magical the season is, I want you to know something. (02:11): Nothing is wrong with you. If Christmas brings up dread instead of joy, if your chest feels tight, if you feel on edge, emotional or maybe numb and disconnected, this episode is going to help you. All right? So why do narcissists get worse at Christmas? You may have guessed this or felt like they do, but why would they? Let's start there. Christmas is emotionally loaded. A lot of expectations, as we all know, traditions, family pressure, kids making memories, performance, right? There's a lot of performing going on and narcissists thrive in environments like this. Christmas gives them built-in attention, right? Built in guilt, built in control, the big runner of their life, and built in audience. I say this because it's especially true here. The holidays are like a narcissist Super Bowl. Okay? They don't experience Christmas as connection like we do. They experience it as an opportunity. (03:19): So this could be an opportunity to control the mood, to play the victim, to be the hero. That's often a big one around holidays. Or quietly sabotage joy without looking like the bad guy. And if kids are involved, which I know a lot of you are co-parenting, Christmas becomes leverage, schedules, gifts, plans, traditions. It's all emotionally charged and it's easy to manipulate. And who's really good at manipulating? Yes, yes. Leonard. So if you ever thought, why is he or she so much worse at Christmas, you're not imagining it. There is a pattern. Okay? This goes also for other holidays and birthdays, especially yours. So you can use some of this stuff also in relation to those. So what are some common ways they ruin Christmas? We're going to name this clearly because clarity is coming for our pretty little nervous systems. So narcissists often ruin Christmas by creating last minute chaos. (04:31): You have a plan, you've maybe created that plan with them. They're going to maybe burn it to the ground just because, nothing like a little last Christmas chaos, last minute chaos. Picking fights right before events, right? Right before, maybe it's the kid trade-off. Maybe if you do kind of co-parent and have meals together, I don't know if that's possible with some, even though you're not comfortable, you may do it anyway because you have done some people pleasing in your life. Maybe you do it for the kids. They will pick fights right before or even during these events. (05:11): They can ruin it by withholding affection, cooperation or money like they do in a relationship. So if you are still in a relationship with them, or even if you are not, they can use especially the money thing during times where there's gift giving. They can play the victim when boundaries are set, like your boundaries or some awful weapon when it's just protecting you and your peace, maybe your child's peace, and making everything about their feelings or quietly draining the joy with tension, size, passive comments. It depends on what type of narcissist they are. It's not always loud. It can be somewhat subtle sometimes you have to look for it. And that subtlety is what can make you doubt yourself though, right? Those specific type of narcissists. You're like, "Am I being too sensitive? Maybe I'm reading into this. Why can't I just enjoy this? It's Christmas." But your nervous system knows something your mind keeps trying to override. (06:21): Your nervous system knows something. Your mind is trying to just kind of dismiss. Okay? So why Christmas triggers you even if you're out? (06:37): This is the part I really want you to hear. Christmas doesn't just trigger memories, which you can. It triggers stored survival responses. Your body remembers the walking on eggshells. It remembers managing moods, someone's specific moods. It remembers performing happiness. It remembers trying to keep the peace. It remembers bracing for something to go wrong. I want you to feel that one, okay? You feel that in your nervous system? I know you do. The body remembers that feeling. Bracing for something to go wrong, just waiting on pins and needles for something to go wrong because it always does. Even if the narcissist isn't physically present in your daily life anymore, your nervous system learned Christmas equals vigilance. And here's the grief aspect. There's grief for the family hoped for, the Christmas you wanted, hoped for, the version of joy that never felt safe. (07:55): It's like you became comfortable with a joy that was not safe, if that makes sense. And society makes this harder because everyone says, "But it's Christmas," which can make you in turn feel broken or like something's wrong with you or not feeling the same elated joy that others are, but you're not broken. You're responding normally to abnormal experiences. I'll say that again. You're responding normally to abnormal experiences that have taken place. So a quick somatic reset. Let's give your nervous system a moment of safety here. Okay? Wherever you are, just pause. And if you're driving, save this for later. But if you're not and you're in a place you can do this, look around and find one thing your eyes naturally want to rest on. Mine obviously, again, want to rest on a flamingo, because why not? They're so fun and pink and gorgeous and just make me happy. (09:10): All right? But don't analyze it. Just notice it. (09:15): This gaze. Now name three things you can see. Two things you can physically feel. I've got a little fuzzy blanket next to me, like pay attention to the texture. And then one thing that feels even slightly comforting right now. Okay. Once you've done that, you can slow, slowly breathe in through your nose, long exhale through your mouth. Nothing to fix. Nothing to force. Reminding your body, I am safe in this moment. Okay? And how do you protect your piece this Christmas? It's not about creating the perfect Christmas. Okay? I don't know if any of us really have that. It's about creating a regulated one. So a few things that can actually help. First, lowering your expectations strategically. So not as defeat, but as a protection, right? Not saying, "Oh, all that. " Not making it so heavy, but more like, "You know what? I'm going to try to enjoy myself as much as I can, might not be perfect, and I'm going to place my boundaries up. (11:04): I'm going to lower my expectations." Giving permission to have lower expectations, right? Giving permission. It's okay. I'm in a situation where I might not have that elated joy right now. Maybe that'll change in the future, but right now I'm not there. So I'm going to lower my expectations so I actually can have a little more joy. It sounds weird, but that is how it works. (11:33): As a protection for yourself. Next, shorten visits and conversations. Gray rock method the heck out of the narcissist if you can. If you don't know what that is, I'll try to remember to put the link in my description box for the Gray Rock Method episode. Create new neutral traditions instead of forcing old ones. Create something new, right? Decide one boundary you will not negotiate with in relation to this and give yourself permission to opt out of something that costs too much energetically for you. Or maybe it's monetary too. All of these things can wreak havoc on our nervous systems. Spending too much money, too much energy on top of dealing with the trauma you may be dealing with. So we don't need to add the layers on. We don't need to perform. We don't need to have the best thing or the most presence for our kids or the matching pajamas. (12:55): I mean, if I have them, great. I mean, they're cute, but this is not a need here. (13:02): You just need to protect yourself enough to get through it, to get through it. And I do believe the more you do these things and the expectations when you lower and give yourself permission, like, "I'm going to enjoy it in my way," you actually will end up feeling a little more joyful than you may have thought. So your next step, if you're navigating guilt, family pressure, or boundary conversations, I have a free boundaries pocket guide. If you don't have it, it's always in the description box. It's free and it walks you through how to set and hold boundaries without the guilt. (13:47): There's also a boundaries course. If you are like, "I really need help with boundaries," majorly I will put that in there. You can click the link, read about it. And of course, if you want transformational, we are not messing around. I cannot do this anymore energy and you're ready to do the work. And I was just talking to a client about this today. I say the work in quotes because yes, there's certain actions you have to take, but a lot of the work when you work with me is the somatic healing, the body healing where it's like you get a break from really overthinking. And I know a lot of you overthink, including myself, people who've gone through narcissistic abuse, we get all sorts of fun in our head. So we go on journeys together. Think of it as it's healing journeys, visualizations, meditations, all different methods, but you are receiving. (14:57): Instead of doing, you are receiving and you are healing through your body. And it's just refreshing to have that release rather than working and thinking and writing in the journal and all those things have their place. But somatic healing is just something so amazing that you don't really get exactly until you do it. So I try to explain it the best I can and you can click and look at the description further to see if it's a match for what you need right now. I have three month, six month and one year long programs. (15:39): You're going to get transformation no matter what. I actually just now changed. I used to do monthly. I no longer do monthlies because it's just the insane transformation you get at three months, six months to ... It's for something like narcissistic abuse, it's not an overnight fix. Can I do one session and help you? Yeah. Can I do a month? And you'd be like, wow, that was really helpful. Yeah. But I have found the most beneficial for my clients that sweet spot of three months or more is just overwhelmingly transformational. That's the only word I can really use. It's epic, mind-blowing stuff that happens in these sessions, the somatic. And of course, we do coaching and some talk therapy type stuff as well. Depending on where you are in your journey, we may do half a session kind of coaching, the next half hour doing somatic. (16:54): It depends on where you are in your journey and also what that week looks like for you. For example, I had a client this week that there was a lot going on with her ex. And so there was a lot of dialogue between them. So it was kind of thinking about, okay, he did this, talking at logistical and what should I do here? So there was a lot of talking and a lot of what do we do moving forward? Sometimes there's legal stuff involved that I will ... I'm not a lawyer. I will never claim to be a lawyer, but I can help in creating questions for your lawyer and just advising, but never without an attorney stamp. But there's all sorts of stuff we can talk about and sometimes it's talkier. But then I have another client this week that she just was so overwhelmed this week and just she's healing. (17:57): She's much more empowered, but with that empowerment comes the narcissist can sometimes come up a little harder and you feel more empowered, but it's like, woo, okay, I did that. I'm so excited. I was able to do that and set that boundary and stick with that boundary, but I'd love a release. So we did an epic hour long somatic journey where she was just like, "Oh my gosh, this is better than any therapy I've ever had. This is mind blowing." So every session is going to look different for every person. And even for each person, every session won't be exactly the same. Might be 10 minutes of talk, 40 of somatic, might be 40 of somatic, 10 of talk. So I just want to give you a better idea and you can always email me and ask me if you want to jump on a quick call to get more clarity on what the work we do looks like. (19:03): And if you don't know, with the three month and above, which is all my programs that I'm doing right now, they have the bonus of Voxer, which is a walkie-talkie app. You can either leave a voice message. Most my clients just text on it, but in between sessions, you are allowed to text me. And I just got, someone texted just two really big wins they had after our session related to that. So that was cool. And then people will ask questions or, "Hey, I just need a little guidance. What do you think I should do? " Or, "Hey, I just need a little pep talk." Whatever you need between sessions, you get to have that space there. So that's the bonuses. And now that there's no monthly, I didn't have that with monthly. I have that with, it's called the Voxer is the app. I forget if I said that, but I have that with the three month and above. (20:04): So whatever program you choose, you're going to get that as a bonus. Like, what? It's the hotness. It's the hot queen level shit. All right. So sorry I blabbed on about that, but I feel like it's hard to convey in just a couple seconds what sessions are like. Maybe I should do an episode just describing what sessions are like. So if someone's interested, they could just listen to that. All right. So if Christmas does feel heavy, it doesn't mean you are failing at healing or you're damaged or broken. It means your body is telling the truth about what it's been through. Remember, our body stores everything and our mind is up here going over here and our body's still storing stuff. And so we're still going to feel it. So be gentle with yourself, okay? Protect your peace. That's like my motto. Protect your peace with your golden peace bubble. (21:05): Put it on. Everybody strap it on for the holidays. And remember, you don't owe anyone a performance. You don't have to get sucked into all the things all the people are doing out there. You be you, you listen to your body and what you can and can't do, what capacity you have. Can we really normalize that? We all have different capacities and that's okay. (21:36): And some people you see out there that are doing all the things and you're like, "Man, they're Superwoman." You know they're far past their capacity and they're having a damn mental breakdown inside. So everything isn't what it seems either. Okay? I just want to make that really clear. Capacity, it's a thing. We all have different capacities. That's okay. Let's normalize that. It's okay if you don't have the capacity to make ... I don't know. I don't make anything. I don't have the capacity to bake all these. My daughter does. She's the baker in this house. Gosh, all these people baking 50 million cookies and doing all the things, that's their thing. It brings them joy. Good. But the pressure to do all the things around the holidays on top of dealing with what your triggers or if you have to co-parent with a narc, I mean, there's a lot. (22:35): Give yourself a break. This is your holiday season too. Do joy your way at your capacity. All right? All right. So Thursday. Oh my gosh. I don't think I'm going to do ... Am I going to do a Thursday show? Is that Christmas Day? It is. Christmas Eve. Am I going to ... Gosh, will you even listen? Do you even want one? I feel like I'm ... I know I should listen to myself right now. I should be like, do I have the capacity? I guess if I have the capacity to do a Christmas Eve show, I will. I will see if I have ... I am taking off. Technically, I'm not working starting tomorrow through the rest of the week. I have no clients. Today we're my last few clients for this week. I only had a few today. And then I'm going to start. (23:30): I'm going to have more next week again, but I took off Tuesday through Friday. So if I have extra capacity and I want to jump on and do a little mini Thrivent five, I will, but I'm not putting the pressure on myself. That's going to be my Christmas present to myself because I love my work. So it doesn't always feel like work and I love doing it and I want you guys to just be happy and thrive in all this. So I feel like this compulsion at the same time to do the things, even if it's a little past my capacity. But I'm going to honor my capacity since I'm preaching that today. All right? So everyone, this holiday week, I solemnly swear I will not push past my capacity at the end. All right. So I will either see you Thursday or Tuesday and you have a Merry, Merry Christmas or Hanukkah if you had just celebrated Hanukkah. (24:37): Kwanzaa, all the holidays. Whatever you celebrate, I hope you can find your type of joy at your capacity this holiday season, and I will see you in the next episode. Move to.

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