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For most of his life, Jason did what he thought he was supposed to do. He got married, built a career, and checked all the boxes, while quietly suppressing something he had actually known since he was six years old.

In 2003, at 28 years old, Jason came to terms with the fact that he was gay after developing a relationship with a coworker who was also married. What followed was incredibly complicated. There was an affair, two marriages, a pregnancy, fear of being outed, and eventually one of the hardest conversations of Jason's life, telling his wife the truth.

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On This Episode We Cover:

→ 00:00:00 - Introduction

→ 00:01:49 - What was it like knowing he was gay from such a young age?

→ 00:02:47 - Did he feel attracted to his wife?

→ 00:04:26 - How did he know he was gay from six years old?

→ 00:06:15 - Why did he suppress his sexuality for nearly 30 years?

→ 00:07:32 - How did the affair begin?

→ 00:12:52 - How did he feel after the first time he was with Matt?

→ 00:14:21 - What was the most stressful part of the affair?

→ 00:17:51 - What changed for him after the affair started?

→ 00:21:42 - What happened when he found out his wife was pregnant?

→ 00:25:02 - Did finding out he was going to be a father change things?

→ 00:28:09 - How did they decide it was time to tell their wives?

→ 00:30:26 - What was the difference between attraction and exploration?

→ 00:34:36 - What was it like telling his wife, “I’m gay”?

→ 00:37:27 - How did his ex-wife respond?

→ 00:40:45 - Why did she want to talk to Matt?

→ 00:41:54 - What was Matt’s response?

→ 00:43:36 - How did his ex-wife choose forgiveness and grace?

→ 00:47:46 - What made him decide to share his story publicly?

→ 00:51:48 - What did they do after coming out?

→ 00:56:20 - What is Matt’s relationship like with his ex-wife?

→ 00:58:38 - How did people in his community react?

→ 01:01:12 - When did Matt and Jason get married?

→ 01:03:28 - Why did he start posting on social media?

→ 01:10:54 - How did his wife’s reaction impact the rest of his life?

Further Listening

→ Being Gay in a Homophobic House

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This week, Ellen opens up about the traumatic story of being attacked by two wolf hybrids when she was just 5 years old. She shares what she remembers from the attack, the devastating injuries that nearly cost her her leg, and the physical and emotional aftermath that followed. She also opens up about living with PTSD, night terrors, and panic attacks, how EMDR and art became part of her healing, and what it has meant to finally share her story 25 years later.

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→ 00:00:00 - Introduction

→ 00:03:30 - Why are wolf hybrids dangerous around children?

→ 00:05:14 - How did the attack happen?

→ 00:07:58 - How did the wolf attack her leg?

→ 00:08:42 - What does she remember afterward?

→ 00:14:58 - How did her parents react?

→ 00:17:00 - Why did doctors consider amputation?

→ 00:19:30 - How did the attack affect her parents?

→ 00:22:18 - How did she recover from four surgeries?

→ 00:27:36 - What was her hospital stay like?

→ 00:31:58 - How did losing her hamstring affect her?

→ 00:34:08 - How did she overcome her fear of dogs?

→ 00:36:08 - Did the owner face consequences?

→ 00:40:50 - How did the attack cause her passion for art?

→ 00:44:18 - What happened during her first psychedelic experience?

→ 00:50:26 - How did the trauma affect her family?

→ 00:59:12 - Why did she finally share her story?

→ 01:05:06 - Why was her dad worried about her sharing online?

→ 01:09:40 - Why do wolf hybrids end up in sanctuaries?

→ 01:13:50 - How did telling her story help her heal?

Further Listening

→ Dove in a Lake and Broke My Neck

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This week, a survivor opens up about the deeply disturbing story of being sexually abused by an adult woman he trusted when he was just 11 years old. He shares how the grooming began, how he was manipulated into believing the abuse was love, the shame and confusion he carried for years, and how the trauma continues to affect his relationships, substance use, and healing today.

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On This Episode We Cover:

→ 00:00:00 - Introduction

→ 00:04:09 - What Was His Childhood Like?

→ 00:06:22 - What Was Happening at Home?

→ 00:08:32 - How Did He Meet His Abuser?

→ 00:13:22 - Why Did He Trust Her?

→ 00:19:00 - When Did Grooming Turn Into Abuse?

→ 00:24:02 - Why Did She Make Him Keep It a Secret?

→ 00:27:22 - Why Was She Giving Kids Drugs and Alcohol?

→ 00:33:46 - Did the Abuse Affect His Sexuality?

→ 00:36:08 - Why Did She Say He Would “Latch Onto” Her?

→ 00:36:48 - When Did the Sexual Abuse Escalate?

→ 00:41:44 - How Did the Abuse Affect His Family?

→ 00:44:34 - Why Couldn’t He Connect With His Mom?

→ 00:46:04 - Did His Friends Suspect What Was Happening?

→ 00:48:18 - How Did the Abuse Affect School and Friendships?

→ 00:51:34 - How did the abuse continue as he got older?

→ 00:55:06 - Why didn’t anyone intervene?

→ 01:00:00 - What happened when her niece came to visit?

→ 01:07:04 - When did he first try to end the relationship?

→ 01:10:44 - Why did the abuse start again?

→ 01:13:50 - When was the last time he saw his abuser?

→ 01:14:14 - How did he tell his fiancée what happened?

→ 01:16:22 - When did he finally start therapy?

→ 01:19:42 - What happened when he saw his abuser again?

→ 01:26:04 - Why does he want to speak out about his story?

→ 01:31:50 - What does he want other survivors to know?

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→ I Dated My PredatorMore We Are All Insane:

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In this episode, I sit down with Niki as she shares the unbelievable chain of events that led to her preparing to self-surrender to federal prison. Nikki opens up about losing her grandmother at a young age, growing up around addiction, unresolved childhood trauma, and the lifelong need to prove that she had everything together.

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On This Episode We Cover:

→ 00:00:00 - Introduction

→ 00:00:41 - A childhood growing up with parents addicted to crack

→ 00:05:21 - A last-minute trip to Vegas

→ 00:06:20 - Who did Nikki meet on the flight to Vegas?

→ 00:18:06 - What happened when Nikki and her friends flew to Guadalajara?

→ 00:23:16 - What were the red flags?

→ 00:27:48 - Stopped at a checkpoint

→ 00:31:36 - Why did a federal agent suddenly contact Nikki?

→ 00:35:29 - How did this unexpectedly lead the federal government to Nikki?

→ 00:40:14 - What was it like being interrogated by federal agents?

→ 00:42:23 - $2 million worth in her truck…

→ 00:45:32 - What was it like living in legal purgatory for 8 years?

→ 00:50:26 - How did Nikki manage to reduce her sentence?

→ 00:54:44 - Why is Nikki actually excited to finally go to prison?

→ 01:01:19 - How does Nikki feel now that this chapter of her life is finally ending?

Further Listening

→ I Sent My Boyfriend’s Brother to Prison

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Deanna is sharing a part of her story she never thought she would tell publicly. After growing up in a deeply controlling religious environment, she entered adulthood without a clear understanding of boundaries, consent, or her own self-worth, leaving her vulnerable to relationships filled with manipulation, coercive control, abuse, and addiction.

She opens up about being groomed and sexually coerced by a partner, losing herself in unhealthy relationships, and turning to alcohol until a DUI and three months in jail became the wake-up call that ultimately saved her life. Through sobriety, recovery, and learning to trust herself, Deanna began rebuilding her identity and discovering that the family she'd always dreamed of didn't have to look the way she'd been taught.

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On This Episode We Cover:

→ 00:00:00 - Introduction

→ 00:02:25 - Why does she use the word intrepid?

→ 00:04:08 - What is the impact of the Diddy and Epstein cases?

→ 00:05:56 - Where was she born?

→ 00:07:48 - What was it like growing up as a southern baptist?

→ 00:12:13 - How was she disciplined as a child?

→ 00:15:32 - What was sex education like for her?

→ 00:22:57 - How was her dating life growing up?

→ 00:26:19 - What happened when she started stripping?

→ 00:28:17 - Why did she feel like she had to get married?

→ 00:32:28 - What did love bombing look like in her relationship with Steve?

→ 00:35:05 - What was it like moving in with Steve?

→ 00:37:59 - When were drugs introduced into the relationship?

→ 00:40:54 - When did the relationship begin to become coercive?

→ 00:44:36 - Why did she keep doing things she didn't want to do?

→ 00:48:40 - Can you become addicted to another person?

→ 00:50:11 - How did she finally get away from Steve?

→ 00:52:51 - When did she meet her second husband?

→ 00:57:12 - What happened during her second marriage?

→ 00:58:59 - What made her finally call 911 on her husband?

→ 01:00:45 - How did divorce lead to more drinking and self-destruction?

→ 01:06:43 - When did she realize her drinking had become an addiction?

→ 01:08:44 - When did she realize her drinking had become an addiction?

→ 01:12:35 - What made her decide to get sober for good?

→ 01:14:36 - How was outpatient treatment and probation?

→ 01:15:39 - What happened when she started dating again?

→ 01:20:31 - Why did she get married a third time?

→ 01:23:02 - What was off about her third marriage?

→ 01:27:13 - How did she feel when she found out he was cheating?

→ 01:31:31 - Why did she stop believing she needed a husband to have a family?

→ 01:34:51 - What is the foster parent application process like?

→ 01:39:40 - Why did she pick her sperm donor?

→ 01:43:33 - What is motherhood like for her?

→ 01:47:59 - How did sobriety help She rebuild her self-worth?

→ 01:50:33 - How did telling her story finally help her let go of shame?

Further Listening

→ I Sent My Boyfriend’s Brother to Prison

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